Monday, November 9, 2015

Wish I Had the Words

I've been trying to write a new post for almost two months now. These past two months have held a lot of joy, but they've also been such a huge challenge. And every time I sit down to put it down in words, I chicken out. I'm still chickening out, actually. There's so much going on right now and as much as I want to include people, I can't bring myself to be open with more than a select few. Some things are just too.. too much to share with others all at once. So, I'm processing and working through things on my own.

Well, that was sufficiently vague. Sorry, guys. Maybe I'll work on putting my feelings on that topic into actual clear and concise words and I'll tell you one day.

In the meantime, here's what's going on.

  • Wedding Plans (yes, capitalized) are going well. 
  • I recently talked to someone about this post and I am actually really proud of myself when I look back on the progress I made over the last year. 
  • We actually managed to get my car in the garage yesterday (I know, it's the little things). We've been struggling with this since we have a "one lane" driveway and I leave first in the morning, but we finally made it work (and I didn't hit his truck on my way out this morning).
  • Started holiday shopping and crafting. I'm actually pretty excited with some projects I'm working on for friends and family. It's going to take a lot of work, but it will be so cool if I get them all finished.
  • Trying to plan holiday time off. With Richard in school, the holidays will be our last chance to do vacation time before the wedding, so we're going to try to make the most of it.

Hope you all are well and sorry this update was a little lackluster. 

Monday, September 7, 2015

#Whole30: 4 Things I've Learned

Well, my Whole30 came to an abrupt end last week and ended up being a measly Whole4. I spent days one through three compliant, but miserable. Everything I read and everyone I talked to informed me that this was just part of the process and I was "slaying the sugar dragon." And then Day 4 happened. And by "happened" I mean that vomiting, diarrhea (sorry, TMI, I know!), fever and severe fatigue happened. I wasn't able to keep anything compliant down except fruit and water. I gave my doctor a call trying to get an appointment and she made it pretty clear that I needed to stop Whole30 and focus on getting better. So unfortunately, that is where my first journey with Whole30 ended.

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

3 Reasons I Was Completely Unprepared for Whole 30, Day 1

I thought I was prepared... HA!
That's right. I jumped on the bandwagon. Well, more accurately, I was impressed with how highly my family and friends spoke of Whole30 and I'd become increasingly frustrated with my eating habits and the way they were making me feel (the eating habits, not the family and friends). I've been gluten-free in the past and even cut back on dairy for quite a while. But give up all grains, sugar, dairy and legumes? That sounded really tough. Tough, but necessary.

I approached it strategically, much like I do everything else to be honest. I wrote a spreadsheet (or three), I visited multiple grocery stores stocking up on my essentials. I read and re-read the program instructions and guidelines. I researched the books; curated recipes from everyone (thanks, guys!) and everywhere (Pinterest) I could find. And yet, I was unprepared for the reality that is Day 1. Let me tell you why.

Saturday, July 25, 2015

The Big News

It's been three months since I wrote. I keep meaning to get on here and update, but I've also enjoyed keeping some things to myself the past few months and just enjoying them on my own.  It has been a wonderful whirlwind of a summer so far. I don't know if anyone even reads this any more since I've gotten so bad at updating. And those that may still read this, I've probably already updated in person, over the phone or on social media.

The biggest news of all: I'M GETTING MARRIED!

I spent so many years thinking it just wasn't supposed to happen for me. And now here I am! Planning my wedding to a man I love, in a location that's absolutely perfect and still kind of stuck in this whirlwind of not knowing if this is really real. Surreal? Dreamlike? Unbelievable? Overwhelming? Yes.

What makes this all the more overwhelming is the fact that I'm starting school this fall. I got accepted to CSU's MBA program and decided to go to grad school before I realized I was going to be planning a wedding. So now, I get to plan a wedding in less than a year while working full time and taking two to three grad classes each semester. It's going to be quite the adventure!

And with this happy news, and I truly am so HAPPY, comes a whole slew of panic and misinformation and self-doubt. Every resource I've read (and those who know me know that I jump into projects headfirst and start prioritizing tasks and creating timelines, etc. It's how I am) says that you may need up to 10 months to find a wedding dress. So that's my priority right now. Unfortunately, this comes with a boatload of pressure (spoken and unspoken) on the way I look. Even though I identify it and attempt to bat these horrible thoughts back where they came from, something inevitably sticks. So now I'm walking the tightrope trying to balance between wanting to feel beautiful on my wedding day, but also not wanting to make myself completely miserable with stupid crash diets and unrealistic exercise regimens.

It's ironic because I wasn't having these issues and these thoughts until getting engaged. Which you'd think would be one of the best reassurances I could receive. Instead, my psyche has taken over and decided that I'm worthless. Yaaaaaayyyyy...

Anywho. Stay turned for Lindsey's eventual meltdown! (Kidding!)

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

2015: A Year of Change

Well. This year certainly has started off as a whirlwind. Many changes, many plans. Here's a quick rundown of the details.

2015's Fun So Far

  1. Turned 30. (As you know if you read this blog at all.)
  2. New job (Meh.)
  3. New relationship (Goes by Richard.)
  4. Moved in with boyfriend (Yay!)
  5. Have access to a garden plot again finally (So thrilled!)
  6. Purchased a brand new computer (which should be delivered sometime this week)

Exciting Plans!
  1. Hot rodding the new computer with Richard's help
  2. Trip to Michigan this weekend
  3. Starting new part-time business venture
  4. Two week road trip out west through Badlands and Glacier National Park with Richard
  5. Getting my finances in order (I know. I say this every year.)
  6. Fresh produce from our garden. Peas are already in and the rest should be going in over the next month or so. 
  7. Back to school in the fall

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Hello, Thirty!

Good Riddance, Twenties!

Ah, my twenties. Some of the best, but hardest years of my entire life. Who am I kidding? I am so ready to put my twenties behind me. They were good because there was a lot of personal growth and experience and I wouldn't give that up for anything. But at the same time, that growth did not come easily.