Friday, January 29, 2010

Happy Blog Award

Thanks to Allison for passing on this 'award'. Ten things that make me happy...

1) Friends - Friends who stand by me, friends who tell me the truth even when I get mad. The few I can call my friends have proven themselves time and time again and I am incredibly thankful for them.

2) Chocolate - Yes, this is a little high on the list, but I have the biggest chocolate craving right now and I am certain that chocolate would make me happy.

3)  A working car - In contrast to the rarely-functioning car that I own.

4) Music -  This is a given.

5) Reading - Ditto.

6) Blogging - Maybe it gives me an over-inflated sense of self-importance, but I still like it. I like writing with the idea that someone may actually be listening.

7) Cooking - Speaking of which, just made the best risotto the other night. So yummy.

8) Exploring New Places - There is something about exploring a city, a museum, or even just a new-to-me store that is so cool.

9) Cleveland - Loving the places to go, people to see, and the most interviews yet of any other place I have been.

10) Learning - Sometimes I think I really am happiest when I'm studying.

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I tag Sarah, Allison, Natalie, Jacob, and Gina (if you still blog). Don't feel obligated to do this, but I'm just passing it on in the spirit of the game. :)

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

YAY!

I just got off the phone and guess what! I have scheduled my third interview in one week! After months of searching and discouragement, it seems like things could possibly get better! I am trying not to get my hopes up, but -at the same time- how can I not be just a little bit excited?  I was actually bouncing I was so excited. Here's a bit of hope, for all of us searching, discouraged and worn-out!

Monday, January 25, 2010

I'm No Good With Sports

Seriously, you'd think I'd be a better catcher after all the curve-balls life has thrown (especially of late). But no. I'm not. I still feel like a bumbling teenager who's out-of-place in a grown up world that she's still trying to figure out how to navigate. You'd think at 25 this awkwardness would start to dissipate. Nope. Not even close.

Hoping that one day before I die I will have at least one moment where I feel like I've got it all figured out. As of right now, I'm still ducking pitches and shaking in my cleats over the confusion.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

The View From Here

...isn't so great, but at least it's a roof over my head and job possibilities!

So, my life is incredibly boring. It consists of writing cover letter after cover letter (I am so sick of telling people how great I am and then never getting a job!), submitting application following the other hundred applications. It also consists of staring at a computer screen for hours on end. Ugh. Yes, I know. I shouldn't whine. I really shouldn't

Okay, moving on. Because of the excessive computer use, I have also found a couple things to break up the monotony (some of which actually only add to the monotony and others that may help).

1) Farmville - I swore up and down that I would never become one of those annoying people who has all the application updates on their Facebook. And yet, here I am. I originally started a 'farm' (though I hesitate to use the word) because my brother was new to Facebook and asked if I would be his 'neighbor'. So, in an effort toward moral support and neighborly goodness, I started out and now I'm addicted! It's not funny. I woke up at 2am the other night wondering if I'd forgotten to harvest the strawberries. Seriously... Employment, wherever you are, please come soon!

2) Music - Thanks to some lovely iTunes gift cards for Christmas I recently got some new music. Asa's self-titled album and Elbow's "Asleep in the Back" are the new additions and I would highly suggest them both (to those of you that like any of the following: world music, social justice issues, alternative music, British accents, and good lyrics).

3) Revisiting my high school days with a bout of babysitting - Yes, babysitting. Seriously, when you can make more money babysitting kids four times a week than you can at Starbucks these days. I'll take the babysitting (especially as Starbucks apparently isn't hiring).

4) And last but not least... my brand spanking new library card! - I am so thrilled to finally have access to a library again. Today I went out and finally got my library card and promptly took out a stack of books and then sat myself down in front of the online catalog to order even more. Something about a library... The bookworm in me is just jumping up and down with glee.

Monday, January 11, 2010

All Will Be Well

The new day dawns,
And I am practicing my purpose once again.
It is fresh and it is fruitful if I win but if I lose,
Oooooo I don’t know.
I will be tired but I will turn and I will go,
Only guessing til I get there then I’ll know,
Oh oh oh I will know.

The winter’s cold,
But the snow still lightly settles on the trees.
And a mess is still a moment I can seize until I know,
That all will be well.
Even though sometimes this is hard to tell,
And the fight is just as frustrating as hell
All will be well.


Keep it up and don’t give up
And chase your dreams and you will find
All in time.

All the children walking home past the factories
Could see the light that’s shining in my window as I write this song to you.
All the cars running fast along the interstate
Can feel the love that radiates
Illuminating what I know is true,
All will be well.
Even after all the promises you’ve broken to yourself,
All will be well.
You can ask me how but only time will tell.

All will be well.
Even after all the promises you’ve broken to yourself,
All will be well.
You can ask me how but only time will tell.
You can ask me how but only time will tell.
-Gabe Dixon Band
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Despite the optimistic tone of this song (when I'm feeling down and out, I usually want a song that will just let me stay there for a bit), it really struck me today. The message I kept getting was something like this:

Life is up in the air. You don't know which way is up or down. Life is lonely, cold and frustrating. But -but!- it is still life. Despite the letdowns and the struggles, I am still alive, I am still participating in this mess and, as he said, "a mess is still a moment I can seize". Here's hoping as I grasp blindly for the opportunity within all my mess.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Update

Well, here I am. Job-searching again. I should be used to this by now. Due to several things that came up recently, I've had to switch locations (again). I'm getting to be a pro at moving. So now I'm here in Cleveland with the grandparents. They're leaving to start their careers as Florida snowbirds in a few weeks and they were kind enough to rent me their place while they're gone and while I get on my feet here.

In the meantime, while I'm job-searching and getting to know the area, I'm enjoying the impromptu cooking lessons with Grandma. I swear, there is something about her meatballs... and her sauce. Anyone who makes meatballs like that and thinks to add ribs -ribs!- to the marinara sauce deserves sainthood! She told me everything that goes in, gave me cooking tips, walked me through it step-by-step and I still don't think I'll ever be able to replicate it to taste that good... I even got to copy out the majority of her other recipes today into OneNote. So sweet. :)

Hope you all are enjoying the first month of 2010.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Here's To...

...better days
...deeper relationships
...healing divides
...mending fences
...new opportunities
...what we have been given, no matter how big or small
...getting struck between the eyes with a lesson on humility
...growing up (hopefully)
...moving on

...2010, as-of-now a year full of possibilities no matter how abysmally wrong we are proven in the end.